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Namah Suffering — the postman

Having personally gone through suffering Also, the fact that none of us really likes to
and finding light through it, it seems plausible suffer, must indicate a deeper truth to us that
that suffering is just a disguise of the love of suffering is not our true nature, but a signal.
the Universe towards us. Just like physical
pain is the intelligence of the body telling me What is required of us then to use suffering
that something needs to be taken care of at as a tool, as a signal?
the body level, emotional/mental suffering
is the intelligence indicating to me that I Honesty and sincerity come first.
have mistaken myself to be the thoughts/
concepts/ideas/body/feelings/emotions, “Do you know what perfect sincerity is?...
while in truth I am much beyond and more Never to try to deceive oneself, never let any part
than all that. of the being try to find out a way of convincing
the others, never to explain favourably what
So, shall we use suffering to become very one does in order to have an excuse for what
intimate with our own self? Usually we are one wants to do, never to close one’s eyes when
found escaping from ourselves, as if we something is unpleasant, never to let anything
really cannot stand ourselves at all. But when pass, telling oneself, ‘That is not important, next
suffering is there, we cannot ignore it. It is time it will be better (3).’”
just too much, too huge, too hard to ignore.
It is good that it is that way and very intense, If I am not even honest and sincere to admit
else we will continue mistaking ourselves to and acknowledge that yes, there is suffering
be something else; and owing to the lack of in my life, I cannot really help myself much.
signal, never really know who we truly are. So, it seems that the first cornerstones of this
pathless way to our own self are raw honesty
Imagine that I am looking for a temple, and and sincerity. Sincerity and honesty about
I enter a lane or a street and a guy there tells my present condition of suffering and all the
me, ‘Babe, not this street!’ And then another subtle movements in my life, in my being.
fellow in another street says, ‘Babe, not this
street.’ And owing to all these rejections Then comes a willingness and courage to
(which can be called suffering), I finally end investigate and go to the depths of suffering.
up finding the right street in which the temple One almost needs to have a love for this
is. So, all the rejections I got, and I may even investigation, this deep dive. Without love
suffer owing to those rejections, are for my for investigation one cannot go too far. And
own good; as they do not let me settle for when, with honesty, sincerity, willingness
anything less than my true self, the temple. and courage, one walks on this path in
All that we learn, owing to all the rejections investigating one’s own suffering, one sees
we get from external people and situations that the veils of ignorance are gradually shed,
have the potency to send us deeper within, one by one. One realises that one has known
into the true home. These sufferings gradually and identified oneself to be the body, which
show us that our peace and happiness lie one is not, to be the thought, which one is not,
within as our true nature, and they cannot be and to be the feelings, which one is not. With
given by some external agents or situations. this gradual process of negation one arrives

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