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Namah                                  Vol. 27, Issue 4, 15th January 2020





        A cheap bargain: life before and after diagnosis

                     Before cancer                            After cancer
         A strong sense of doership              Doership replaced by presence of the
                                                 Grace in action
         Anxiety and stress a part of life       Anxiety and stress virtually absent from
                                                 life. And whenever they visit, I take time
                                                 out to see how they manage to enter
         Unawareness of the body, as if the body   An intimacy with the body and all its
         were abandoned and the Master of the    sensations. A constant checking in with
         body was missing                        the body to see how it is doing
         A lack of faith in the cells of the body  Slowly, with practice, an instillation of
                                                 faith and surrender in the cells
         Unawareness of the body, abandoned      Presence of a deep rest in the cells of
         body; which at first when met with,     the body, an undying faith in the all-
         showed the presence of anxiety and      pervading Grace
         restlessness
         Content of the mind: thoughts of others   Contented mind: the mind is mostly at
         and thoughts about myself, destructive   rest, not wanting to reach somewhere;
         thoughts about the  future, negative    although there is a lot of service work that
         thoughts about the past; a background   now keeps the mind engaged with; New
         chanting of  ‘things must not be this way’  opportunities spring up and the mind is
                                                 working directed by an inner guidance
         No awareness of the free-will, life     A deep awareness of the free-will and
         on a default automated mode run by      therefore a knowing that one has always a
         tendencies and patterns of the mind and   choice to suffer or to go through difficulties
         vital                                   without suffering, in surrender — looking
                                                 for the Light masked as darkness
         Attachment a way of life. Attachment in   Detachment as a bonus gift. Once the
         relationships and having the inner anchor  inner anchor is rightly placed, there is no
         wrongly placed on situations and people   need to derive  pleasure from depending
         around, thus making their life miserable   on someone else
         too
         Contentment absent from life. Hence     A deep inner contentment. Plus a longing
         certain demands and expectations arising   to go deeper and deeper
         from situations, from people, to have that
         temporary satisfaction
         A life dedicated to the pleasures of the   A life dedicated to inner growth, a
         vital, the stories of the mind and an   childlike enthusiasm to know, to seek and
         unstoppable restlessness                to learn new things



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