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Namah Vol. 29, Issue 2, 15th July 2021

stubbornness. All this is a manifestation Whenever I see the beggar rising up in the
of the desire-soul/ego (2). This is not the being, and become aware of it acting out,
manifestation of my true essence, and hence can I be vigilant? Can I not feed this illusion,
these are my areas of work in this life. the illusion of lack? Can I stop acting out
the beggar tendency in my relationships, in
Saint Kabir says, “Neither the illusion/Maya dies, my workplace, in my life? Why must I stop
neither the desiring mind dies, all that dies or feeding the beggar in me? The one who keeps
withers away is the body, the matter. Your thirsts, on desiring and desiring and desiring? Because
your hopes, your desires, your incompletions did I see clearly that a desire fulfilled doesn’t satisfy
not die.” (Maya mui naa Mann muaa, mar mar gaye the beggar, another desire comes, and yet
shareer, asha-trishna naa mari, keh gaye das Kabir) (3). another. The stomach of the beggar forever
remains empty, unfulfilled; as if its hunger
It becomes clear to us then that our task as a is a mirage that can never really be realised.
human being on the path of life as yoga is not to
nurture and sustain our sense of incompletion, So, the best way to move on then is to notice
nor to nurture our insecurities, our hopes and and then ignore the demands of the beggar
fears, our emotional and mental insufficiencies tendency; and make discernment/viveka,
and rigidities; but the task is to overcome them the light of understanding as the King of
all, to know thyself beyond all the illusory my being. Out of my understanding and life-
insufficiencies (4). And, in knowing yourself experiences, I see that no matter how many
above and beyond all those insufficiencies, they times I have tried to fill the tummy of the
can all be further worked upon, refined, made hungry beggar in me, it has never really put
purer; and hence we begin the walk towards him to rest, it always remains unfulfilled and
progress and perfection of mind, vital and restless. So, can I just not drain my energies
physical as instruments of the Divine/of further in order to be a slave to the dictates of
Truth and not falsehood/ego. the beggar? Can I stop being a servant to the
beggar, the ego, the falsehood of incompletion?
To stop fuelling the beggar tendency in me

In those places where I feel weak in my life,
attached in my life, there is an illusory beggar
in operation. ‘Beggar’ is a term used here for
the sense of lack or insufficiency, sense of
unworth, sense of incompletion. Whenever
I am working or relating in my life from this
sense of lack, I am fueling the falsehood,
the beggar tendency in me. Whenever I When I stop fuelling the beggar, gradually, I
am listening to the dictates of the beggar, can be a servant to my Truth. I will not be a slave
who is always asking, always demanding, to the dictates of the sense of incompletion, my
always incomplete with a bottomless void, I tendencies, my mental opinions, my attachments
am fueling the falsehood, the ego, the beggar. and insecurities. When I step back from all of that,
I can gradually take charge of my whole being,

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