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The turn of events so happened that I got and peace. Yet I am aware that a lot of stuff
more and more chances to read and work will still continue to appear and demand
around the teachings of Sri Aurobindo and organisation in the course of time. But when
the Mother. I found a pre-school run by the the backing of the psychic is there, where is
Gnostic Centre purely by chance, guided by the space for fear?The work is vast; and I go
Grace. After that, I got a chance to read and look on in aspiration, in prayer.
through the teachings, through the offerings of
courses by the Gnostic Centre. In front of our “So long as one element of the being, one
apartment building is the Sri Aurobindo Society movement of the thought is still subjected to
Centre of Gurugram, where I just went one day outside influences, not solely under Thine, it
and started volunteering to work two days a cannot be said that the true Union is realised;
week. All my focus somehow shifted to these there is still the horrible mixture without order
things now and not on the ill-health. It was as and light, — for that element, that movement is
if gradually my life got filled up with lots of a world, a world of disorder and darkness, as is
clean water and slowly the mud and the dirt the entire earth in the material world, as is the
started to rinse itself off, drop by drop. material world in the entire universe (8).”

I could not see any other way ahead for myself, References
other than the surrender and continuous offering
of my darkness and light to the Mother. It 1. Sri Aurobindo. Birth Centenary Library, Volume
appears as if it was a plan of the Divine to 17. Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo Ashram Trust;
bring me back home. And that is just the 1971, p. 126.
first step. It is just that now I know where
to surrender, all my ugliness and pettiness 2. The Mother. Collected Works of the Mother,
and goodness, and the dark and the light Volume 15. Cent ed. Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo
and each part of my being as it shows up. It Ashram Trust; 1980; p. 149.
is just the beginning.
3. The Mother. Collected Works, Volume 4. 1972,
An effortless drive towards Harmony p. 31.

This series of life-events somehow brought 4. The Mother. Collected Works, Volume 9.1977,
some bits and pieces of me together. As if they pp. 162-63.
were getting organised around this centre,
which can be called the psychic. Along with 5. Ibid., p. 164.
that came a constant knowing of the presence
of the Higher Being. The work is huge and 6. The Mother. Collected Works, Volume 15, p.
vast, it is only now that I realise this. But I 163.
can see that the first step has been thrusted
upon me by the Grace of the Mother. 7. Ibid., p. 158.

Something within seems to have found harmony 8. The Mother. Collected Works, Volume 1. 1979, p. 8.

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